My journey to shalom:
I was born in December 1985. My mom loves me a lot. My dad loves me conditionally. I was molested at 6 by my second cousin. I told my father because I naturally thought of him as my protector. My dad told me I was a liar, that I was manipulating my parents because I wanted them to not have a sitter! When I was 8 I turned to marijuana. By 9 I was drinking. By 13 I had started meth. By 15 I was pregnant. I had my son December 7th 2002. I gained a lot of weight so I started meth once again. I got pregnant again. The father of my boys didn’t support me in getting clean. I felt lost! I used until 4 days before I delivered my son. I cried out for help and went to a secular rehab. Then I began a spiral with pills. I used pills for a long time. I tried to stop but withdrawals are rough. I started mixing meth and pills. I used intravenously for the first time at 22. I struggled so hard with my identity after ending my relationship with the father of my children. I met heroin at 26. I overdosed and died. God had his hand on me though.
In 2014 I was watching the Seahawks and one of my favorite players Russell Wilson. He talked about his relationship with God. I knew I had to get to know the God he was describing! I started seeking help. I was also diagnosed with Hepatitis C that year. I made my way to Hot Springs, Arkansas to Shalom Recovery. I graduated in April of 2016. I have since been blessed by the love from the ministry. I live in the Shalom transition house. I’m getting my children back full time this summer! I have been healed from Hep C! I am marrying my best friend this summer and we are moving into our own home!
One thing is certain when you arm someone with the Word, and surround them with love, change is possible! I will have 2 years clean in May 2017. That’s the longest span of being clean since I was 8! I also have completed the Celebrate Recovery step study. Now I am going to Bible college to further my ministry calling! I also sponsor a resident at Shalom which is wonderful!
1 Corinthians 7:24
Brothers and sisters, each person, as responsible to God, should remain in the situation they were in when God called them. Recovery ministry is where I plan to stay!!! Thank you Lord!!!